FARGO, North Dakota — Mike Smith, a local Air Force veteran, recently published a book titled “The Gutter Gospel,” detailing his struggles with mental illness and addiction over nearly four decades. Through his writing and a newly launched podcast, he aims to inspire others facing similar challenges, emphasizing the importance of purpose and redemption.
Smith’s journey began at age 12 with the loss of his father, which initiated a series of events leading to his long battle with bipolar disorder and addiction. He documented his experiences in a journal for 35 years, often feeling isolated and rejected. “I journaled for 35 years, when I had nobody to actually even share it with,” he explained. The culmination of this introspection is “The Gutter Gospel,” which offers a personal account of his life and the profound moments that shaped his faith.
In his book, Smith recounts a powerful dream where Jesus showed him a place where tears are collected in the “Sea of Tears.” During this vision, Smith learned of the value of even the most seemingly insignificant life, represented by a muddy penny. This revelation solidified his purpose: to help others see their worth and the potential for transformation.
Despite his recent success, including an opportunity to pitch his story to the Christian film industry, Smith chose to focus his efforts on volunteering at Seeds of Hope in Dilworth, where he helps distribute food to those in need. He stated, “I traded in my tickets so I could bless others less fortunate.” His desire to serve stems from his own experiences of being an outcast, including multiple hospitalizations at the North Dakota State Hospital.
Smith’s narrative is one of resilience. He faced numerous setbacks, including being expelled from the military and struggling with addiction. Yet, throughout these challenges, he encountered moments of divine intervention. For example, while in a psychiatric unit, another patient compared him to Job, the biblical figure who endured immense suffering. Such affirmations fueled Smith’s belief that he would eventually find peace and purpose.
His relationships with fellow veterans and community members have also been instrumental in his recovery. Kirk Seltzer, who met Smith through a men’s prayer group, noted the warmth behind Smith’s initially imposing presence. The two connected over their shared struggles and faith, participating in Bible studies together. “He’s been through a really rough time,” Seltzer remarked, highlighting Smith’s sincerity and passion for helping others.
Smith is also pursuing a role as a minister with the Jail Chaplains program, where he aims to support individuals grappling with difficult circumstances. Eric Johnson, who met Smith at a Jail Chaplains event, praised Smith’s ability to connect with people from all walks of life. He emphasized Smith’s commitment to evangelism and community outreach, saying, “Mike has turned to the Lord, and in turning to the Lord, he has turned many others toward him.”
Despite facing adversity, Smith remains hopeful and focused on his mission. “The Gutter Gospel” serves as a reminder that redemption is possible for anyone, regardless of their past. He believes that through God’s grace, love, patience, and mercy, individuals can find their purpose and share their stories.
To explore more about Smith’s journey, including excerpts from his book and links to his podcast, visit his website at https://theguttergospel.com/home. For those interested in supporting his outreach efforts, contributions can be made to “Mike Smith’s Mission of Love and Recovery” at https://www.gofundme.com/f/donate-to-mike-smiths-mission-of-love-and-recovery.